Head in Bag, Bag in Hand.

Okay, so last Sunday was probably the worst day I had ever since I left home. Actually, probably one of the worst even before I left home. It started when I wasn't feeling too well, and I woke up with the most horrible stomach ache/cramps... And no, it wasn't my period. Anyways, Sunday was Sh*t-I-Have-To-Do-Hmk Day, and I was doing math and more math and feeling generally unwell and then I was doing bio and then suddenly the sun had sank into the earth and darkness leaked in through the windows. My stomach hurt, my head felt funny, and when I couldn't take it anymore I half-crawled onto my bed, hugged the covers, and lay there letting fine little chills running up and down my body. My head wasn't completely right, and so I concluded that I might be experiencing slight fever symptoms. And I thought, This isn't at home where getting sick isn't so bad, you have people there who know what to do, who can probably get medicine to you, can drive you to a doctor. Me lying on my bed in the dark, it was a bit scary, thinking that if I was suddenly really sick, and my roommates weren't home, and I somehow couldn't call anyone- it's damn inconvenient, and frightening. I wasn't feeling so awful, so sick, and I didn't know what it was because I had no cough, no sneezing, runny nose.. I just felt awful when I woke up in the morning. It just hurt. A lot, so much that I wanted the pain to materialize into something dark and black so I could physically crush it with my hands and step on it to make it go away.
I decided, You know what? I'm just not up to getting up anymore, I'm going to stay in bed and hopefully fall asleep so I won't feel anything anymore. I couldn't sleep. I slowly righted myself up and the sensation was now so totally different and it was like my insides were hot and stuffed up and it was waiting.
I felt for a random plastic bag and then I threw up. I heaved until there was nothing left and stumbled out to throw it down the garbage chute on my floor. I saw V (my other roomie) and told her I threw up, and it was so amazing a feeling to have her- someone- look at me with concern, and ask me if I want anything (Advil, I think it was)..

I hadn't thrown up in years. Ugh.